Monday, September 1, 2014

Let the Little Children Come

“You will see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” ~Psalms 27:13




This is going to be a truly honest post, one that may be hard to read. But it is real. And this is my life.

Days here are filled with many ups and downs. Times of difficult conversations among staff, times of heart wrenching situations with the kiddos, times of feeling so defeated, overwhelmed and uncertain of what will happen next.  Times of not feeling at all, and recognizing an unsettling numbness to all emotion that has been ever so familiar in the past. BUT, there have also been times of enormous blessings, radical healings, transformations and times of being consumed with God’s overwhelming love, His Father heart for his children, and His comforting and assuring presence. Days are mixed with it all. And God’s presence is never fleeting.

The following are glimpses into the kind of consequences of evil we are trying to speak and bring life into: Our precious little girls and boys trying to maneuver through this life with a sexual brokenness at such a young age.  Trying to teach kindergarteners what the differences are between “good” and “bad” touch and feeling the burden of God’s broken heart for their lives that have been robbed, so unjustly, of their childhood and innocence. Seeing the tears stream down their tiny little cheeks as they try to process what has been done to them and how to thrive, now, in spite of the lying arrows that have pierced them so deeply.

And God sees them. And He sits with them and speaks his gentle and furiously pure love over their hearts, minds and bodies. And we continue to put our trust in Him that he is making ALL things new. And what the Enemy meant for harm in their lives will be turned into God’s masterpiece of redemption.  There are times when my heart feels like it may be completely crushed under the weight of this pain that they have to feel, but God’s grace pulls these burdens from my hands and takes them upon, Himself, yet again.  

And where the Spirit of the Lord is…there is freedom. And we get to see this too. We get to see four of God’s beloved little children decide to put their hope in Him and make decisions to follow Him. [Prayers appreciated for Norma, Sandra Lucia, Edwin and Cristofer as they begin to walk this out!] We get to see the transformation in their hearts start to take root. Behaviors start to change. Hearts start to be awakened to Hope, to Love, to Freedom. Deep-rooted anger exchanged for joy. Where bad words and insults once reigned in the mouths of these beloved ones, hugs and joy-filled smiles are becoming more frequent! We have gotten to witness God’s physical healings for the community. Tumors completely disappearing, hearing and eyesight restored, demons being driven away, addictions and depression being replaced with freedom and joy. God is moving!

And it is in these times that my heart rejoices and feels as though it could explode with the realization of God’s tender, generous love and compassion. God’s grace makes room for us to see these moments too. And I am left in awe.

So this is where I am, regardless of the situation, always in the palms of his mighty hands. Where else would one rather be? These beloved kiddos have had very painful lives and it’s not fair. But at the same time, I am reminded that they are, in some ways, blessed with such richness in getting to see God’s love manifested around them at such a young age. They are already witnessing and participating in healing people in their own community, feasting on the Word of God, memorizing scripture after scripture, learning how to pray over each other and declare life and God’s truths, and already starting to recognize and walk in their unique spiritual gifts. They have been called to the Wedding Feast and they are coming full of such vigorous hunger for the things of God! While so many of us still continue to be satisfied with scavenging around and filling up on the scraps that fall on the floor, they are starting to recognize their place at the table and claiming their inheritance! I have learned much from them in their child-like faith…that has had every opportunity to be broken or crushed…but still continues to trust and believe that God really means the things that he says! Blessed are the poor in spirit for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

Let the little children come to me. They hold the keys to the kingdom of God with a faith that inspires all of us who have ever been broken and bruised with doubt to come and join in the Wedding banquet. God has already prepared it and it is waiting for us!