Falling In Love...

Its amazing what depth of joy that freedom and revelation can bring forth. It basically ruins you for the ordinary. For me...an ordinary that consists of always striving. striving to please God...to always trying and feeling the failure of not making him proud. Of constantly trying to "do", instead of just "be". I have been revived to a place in which i can see with new vision more of my true identity in Jesus...and it is through this revelation that i feel a new joy.

This past week the lectures were on "The Father Heart of God". Tom Hallas was the speaker and i seriously learned so much from his teachings and his display of God's heart through his own character.

Telling truth from lies becomes so much clearer when you are able to not only recognize but obediently choose to live out of your proclaimed inheritance as sons and daughters of the most High God. How blessed are we?!

With more revelation and experiencing God...the more my faith and trust is increased. One of my favorite quotes from Tom is "If we do not think that God is worthy of our trust/love, we will not fully trust him" "We will not love him with ALL that we are if we do not fully trust his character". So true....at least it definitely is true for me. seems so simple when i write it out...but to my heart and head it was profound:) Sometimes love has to be a choice for me. To daily choose to walk out my existing trust in God with how i live...and to continually press in to more experiences with God so that i am reminded how worthy He truly is.

2 awesome songs that ive recently downloaded that capitalize on what i've been experiencing lately: "You Have Ravished My Heart"- Brian Johnson & "I Have Found"- Kim Walker

Anyways...So, we have 2 more weeks of lecture phase left before we leave for Mexico City/Veracruz! I cannot believe how flippin fast the time has gone here and how much truth i've soaked up. Our trip plans are going to be pretty open and unknown beforehand as well as prolly day-to-day. This is because our outreach team is the first one that LA has sent to these cities, so everything is new and exciting! Thus TBD:) basically what we are going to do is seek God each day we wake up and get the down low from the Holy Spirit on what he wants us to do with our time. i'm so stoked to see more of God in this way! We are partnering with churches and will be going in with the mindset of empowering them to reach their cities, so that when we leave they can continue to make fight the battles. we have the chance to bring in our own ideas that God is already laying on our hearts and perhaps be able to put them into play once we are there. i may have a lot of ideas already:)

So...we leave around the 14th (i think) of December. and we will then be back in the states after 2 months. And then my Transformation DTS is over. wow. I am comforted in knowing, though, that God will faithfully continue to transform me for the rest of my life if I let him. I have a couple different ideas for after DTS, but i'm not certain at all on either of them, so it will be alot more practicing of my faith! They have another school that is offered here that would start shortly after DTS ends. It is called SOMD- School of Ministry Development. It is a 3 month long school in which your gifts and talents are capitalized on and you are able to begin working out specific projects and dreams that God has placed on your heart...BRAZIL...haha...and actually work on practical program development stuff and putting it into place...and an optional outreach after the 3 month school. i'm considering it. But there are alot of things to also consider...like...my 2 lil boys whom i miss so much but in all actually are prolly doing fine without me lol (my cats!) haha...and then there are those nasty school loans which i keep defering...So...

I need prayer:) like always! prayer specifically for the following:

* Last 2 weeks of lecture phase...
-that i can continue to soak up all the truth that God has for me
-that i can continue to choose to live out my identity in Christ and continue to realize more of what that truly means
-that God will be preparing each day for us in advance (for outreach)
-that our minds and heart will be protected against spiritual warfare (deppression & oppression) b4 and mostly while we are in Mexico
-that God will lay on our hearts his ideas and visions for Mexico and the outreach activities that He desires for us to do
-and a practical thing of money for a backpack for Mexico, b/c we will be traveling alot and i need like a hiking backpack to lug around my stuff in!

*After DTS ends (in 2 months)...
-revelation of the path God wants me to follow
-whether it is the secondary school of SOMD (preparing for Brazil)....or just up and going to Brazil (with a few ideas of my own)...or going back to Indianapolis...or whever the heck else or whatever else that God may surprise me with:) the options are prolly endless and i like it like that!

haha...peace out ya'll. i love you all and continue to thank God all the time for such an AMAZING group of supporters he has blessed me with. THANK YOU for walking with me in this journey of life.