My First Love:

People not only can possibly fail us...they, frankly, will fail us. If you judge morality and the thousands of decisions you have to make within a given lifetime, according to human standards, then right and wrong becomes subjective. Truth becomes distorted. And God's best slips through our hands into the blurred lines of a world so prone to self-protection and the compulsion of doing whatever feels right or good according to him or herself. We take God out of the equation. We become the god of our lives, and our friends, mentors, family, lovers, become the voice and reason of the holy spirit. We base our faith on others, not God. While I hold, firmly, that all of the above persons should be voices that are capable of speaking into our lives, and directing us towards Truth...I believe that we too often stop our quest for truth short of THE TRUTH. The source of all that is good and righteous. We love something more than Love himself. We idolize. We spiritualize. We rationalize. We give our love and devotion short of who is truly deserving of it.

I will hold fast to my first Love. While so many others have failed me, I am constantly reminded that my Father has never, nor will never fail me. I am constantly reminded that my Lover has the whole of my heart because I have all of his. Yes, I wrote that right, he is my Lover...because our relationship is one of intimacy. He, seeing into all of who I am and I, learning how to see into all of who he is! And he is infinite. He will never come up short of showing us something new about himself on any given day. How cool is that?! How loved are we...that the Creator of this entire universe would long to reveal himself to us and have us reciprocate our pursuit of him. Over and over again...my Savior's personal rejection within his own life, paints a picture of such pure love, that all I can do is yearn for more of him. I am only held accountable to one. And he is who I will live for. He has my heart in his hands...my first love...always.